Trust....and Fuck It!

"Why do we close our eyes when we pray, cry, kiss, dream? Because the most beautiful things in life are not seen but felt by your heart."

Fully embrace it. All. We can't selectively numb the emotions we don't want to feel. Love fully, learn to let go when it is time. Put your trust in that infinite force that is within everything and everyone. Don't be afraid to feel. Everything is going to be ok!

Easier said than done Gurunam. Shit. You don't know my life.

Trust in something that I can't even see or measure?! Believe me, I know how scary this is. I'm still working on it.

If we cannot trust in ourselves, we can get bogged down with trying to control outcomes and the truth is that we never really have control. Control is a mirage that our brains make up to try to make sense of life because it's too scary for our minds to realize that we actually don't have control. Our minds are innately programmed to define, but how can we define something that is infinite? How can our minds fathom this experience of life?

We are so much more than our bodies, yet we are confined to them, our mind left to wander about in the ethers wherever we let it go.

How can we make sense of this thing called life with our brains!? We can't. There lies the constant struggle of the mind with that deeper intuitive knowing within us. In order for true happiness to occur, we have to surrender our intellect/ego/sense of self to the deeper part of ourselves and our brains don't like that idea.

I have been through some difficult times in my 20s and have often asked myself, and God, "Why me?! Why is this happening?" Looking back, I knew the answer already, I just didn't want to admit it to myself, so I just kept asking the questions...kept distracting myself with the pain. I kept thinking that I was going through these difficult times because I wasn't good enough. I must deserve it. These experiences inevitably woke me up to the fact that they weren't truly what I wanted. I was just fulfilling an unmet need within myself. OK, back to the drawing board. Here is where the real work begins, to learn how to be true to myself.

I was hiding my potential behind all of these outside things. I was letting life happen TO me rather than choosing to be an active participant and go for what I wanted. I was living in fear. Fear of being great honestly. I was actively seeking out people and experiences that would hold me back.

Why?

I think because I was afraid to be great. Afraid to be amazing and talented. To fully embrace my awesomeness and stand confidently in knowing my own worth.

Weird to write that out, but it's true. So, I'm employing my new favorite mantra, "Fuck It" and just going to do it. Put myself out there. Write what I want to write, act how I want, dance how I want, sing how I want, be how I want because fuck it. I'm going to actually believe in myself for a change and choose to really own how awesome I am.

How did I go from trust to fuck it...I'm not quite sure but I just did so....deal with it. Now I'll turn the tables around on you. I'd like you to ask yourself, in what area of your life could you benefit from using this magical phrase, "Fuck it"?

Just think about it. It's not about being rude, it's not something you have to say out loud. It's with a shrug and a willingness to put your fears aside and just TRY. AT LEAST try. If you don't try, you will never know...and living with regret, there is nothing worse. Getting older with each passing day, the regret digging a deeper and deeper hold...I don't think anyone wants that. Sooo.....

Fuck it. Just go for it. Whatever it is that is calling to you. The world is your oyster. Whatever excuses are coming up in your brain right now...there are solutions for all of them...if you are just willing to allow yourself to be open to seeing it.

Just start to break down the walls within your mind that are open to other realities brick by brick by asking yourself compassionate questions like,

What if I chose to see this as a blessing in disguise?

What if this isn't a failure that is showing me yet again that I'm not good enough, but a redirection to something better...and what did I LEARN from this?

What negative beliefs do I have about myself that are holding me back from truly living my potential?

What if I let myself off the hook for a day and gave myself more compliments than criticisms?

Nothing is impossible.

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